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Name: Elissa
Country: Korea, South
Birthday: 6/3/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: being a mommy, ball state u, early childhood development, learning a 2nd language, Study of religion, breathing, mystical creatures...
Expertise: Constant over-stimulation numbs me...Nothing seems to satisfy (how do you not overstimulate a Toddler/how do you not stimulate them enough?)
Occupation: Sales
Industry: book sales
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  p1ss0ny0u
Yahoo:  teardroppedfaery
Member Since:
12/18/2002
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| 73 days and counting until we will be driving away from our cozy campus apartment here in Muncie Indiana. Are you ready to welcome us into the eastcoast? The semi-permanent return is long awaited for me but for some aching reason I'm often tempted to have us stay away just a bit longer. Is it the nagging of my mother and the proximity of her nagging footsteps? Is the desire to stay away fear of another change, this time from school environtment to "the real work world?" or is this just a basic fear of the unknown. We don't know where dewayne will be working, where we will be living (aside from the temporary residence in my parents home), need to find doctors, school for Jaiden...the list goes on.
living with my parents again is not something i'm looking forward to! My mother is highly demanding and thinks everything should be about her. I don't like everything that i do being judged, or nitpicked or anything...and my mother has a massive problem with keeping her nose out of her childrens business eventhough we are grown.
i must prepare myself!
SO the answer is (obvious) we are moving to connecticut and then eventually (once DW finishes military schooling) hopefully Boston area.
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| One day ok, one day not so much...The semester has begun. A whole summer has past since they've spoken yet I still feel that pinch in my soul that I just might be a fool... Would you feel like a fool if it was you? What are the odds i ask...1:19 well yes that one...is in his group of 4 people. Damn bitch, wont stop ruining my days!
I trust him, but the pinch in my soul keeps trying to convince me not to. What is he not telling me, is he just trying to "protect me" from the fact that yes they do talk, they have to they are doing a freaking project together...AGAIN. WTF!
Married, 2 children, why couldn't she just leave him alone in the first place, or better yet if she wanted to be his "friend" grow up and realize when you get one you get the other! yes we are a 2 for one deal!
Little Girls need to understand that if they want to be friends with a married man it is More then common courtesy to befriend the wife as well!
So lets just say today is a "not so much!" I'm not in as bad of shape as i was last semester...but we're only a week and a half down...
i need him to reassure me
he tried this morning...
so am I a fool?
today I'm not ok
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| Another semester almost down. Things have been really stressful for me this semester. I haven't dealt with the change from one child to 2as gracefully as I'd hoped I would. I've had a hard tell dealing with the fact that something got to give...Should it be my personal time like showering, taking a dump in piece, dishes piling up in the sink, papers that need to me filed, running or anykind of get fit stuff, laundry, my school work, playing with the kids.... What would u let go there? So today I've decided I want to stop trying to be perfect at everything!!! I can't stand to live in messiness but my children are suffering because instead of spending some quality time teaching Jaiden how to write his letters or work with danika on flash cards and sign language I'm to worried about the stupid dishes or if the floor needs to be cleaned again. Obviously things need to get cleaned but I don't want to take me away from the kids to perfect everything. I would rather myself be perfect for the kids then the apt be "perfect". So wanna come cleanly apartment so I can play with my kids and not go crazy trying to accomplish the world . I'm sure itwont last long I'm just hoping long enough that I can really get the Hang of the 2 kids and self then add in the other stuff... | | |
| I should be reading my school book, putting away laundry, washing dishes, or cleansing my body...instead i'm here typing away on my computer. My children are both sleeping, and my husband is at school.
Life is moving fast, i feel i say this often! I realized a couple of weeks ago that i am going to be 26 years old in a few months. when i was a child i used to think 30 was old...now i'm coming upon it...my husband is 31. OH Goodness, so am I old? It has snuck up on me way too fast! I don't fully even know what i'm going to do when i grow up! (so to speak)
my children consume a majority of my time and basically housework is the rest. Something i am doing for MYSELF is reading the twighlight series, but of course i only get to read that when i'm breastfeeding miss D and jaiden doesn't know we are awake...or late at night when he's asleep. However Danika is getting so interactive now that reading while breastfeeding is becoming an impossible task. At least i have finished one of the 4 int he series. #2 and #3 just arrived in the mail today...unfortunately i have much to read for my class.
I suppose i could classify my class as something i'm doing "for myself." but if that would be the case then DeWayne is doing something for himself all day everyday! so i do'nt really like putting school in the same category as reading a book(s) for the fun of it.
well would like to say more but i truly should depart to shower, pump some milk out of my body, wash the dishes, and prepare diner. (i have class this evening)
i have many pictures i've taken but i want to photoshop some so once i get the moment to do that...you will get some.
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